So what does day 2 look like around here? Not much really. Chances are I will be working tonight but if not I may go to Zumba just to throw in some cardio but my next walk will be tomorrow. So why am I posting? Well because this journey is not just about the miles. Those are the easy parts, even if they are painful. The rest of the journey is in the kitchen and the bar. I mention bar because I happen to have a very strong relationship with wine and vodka and quite frankly have no desire to break up with either, even though we have decided to take some time apart.
I know some of you know I have a very jacked up relationship with food. It's my friend. I happen to use it as a crutch, a reward, a consoler, a confidant, you name it I go to food. Tummy ache? Must be hungry. Sad? Sushi will fix that! Pissed off? Pizza for the win! See the pattern here? Well when you mix that way of thinking with situational depression with a side order of ptsd and a dash of bipolar disorder, you have a recipe for a fat disaster. Which is the boat I am in now. So what do you do when you use food as a safety net. I wish I knew the answer because it is a struggle. Some of the things you do are as follows:
- Contemplate weight loss surgery
- Vow to do better.. fail
- Contemplate being fat forever
- Vow to do better .. fail
- Contemplate weight loss surgery
- Eat one meal a day
- Eat 23 meals a day
- Contemplate being fat forever
So day two what am I doing to get to my half goal in 23 days? Trying to stick to the plan in spite of a scale that hates me and getting up at the ass crack of dawn to put in 4 miles even though I work tonight (I thought that would happen).. That my friends is my day 2.
See below... leave a note let me know you were here. Support is the key to any journey!
Peace, Love, and Miles
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3/3/228
You need a true friend to help your accountability and support not break down,, I am willing to offer my knowledge if you need it, first step is to ask
ReplyDeleteYou are a rock star! Look at you reading the blog and everything! Will be in touch xoxo
DeleteRe...you are so real and frankly it is one of the things I love about you. I've never had a problem with being over weight but I have always had self image issues. I hear it all the time from people about how crazy I am to think I need to lose weight or go on a diet. But really it comes down to how I feel about myself. I can tell you that since I have joined the optavia program I have been able to drop 10 lbs in 4 weeks and still eat. I am also a person who loves food.
ReplyDeleteLove you bunches!!!! xoxoxo
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